chinwahlun's Xanga

party is over, game is on, party never end

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 00:16:00 GMT

Only when u didnt overlook what you are responsible to do, there wont be a game u cannot win.

Association and Dissociation

Association makes you fully participate in the game. Disscociation makes you read the game well. Able to use them in the right time makes the difference.

I am having enough of Dissociation, I need to learn how to make friend with Association.

Winning 2009 is the theme. Peaceful in heart, get along well with fear, be motivated.

God Speed!

Change

Sat, 03 Jan 2009 23:45:08 GMT

There is always a reason for not updating Xanga. And the reason is happiness is more than sadness.

My passion to record or memorize will only heat up when sadness overwhelm happiness.

Sadness is something I missed in 2008 but she come to visit me again by this end of last year. Hopefully 2009 will be a year of balance plus a year of change.

In most of the areas, I am still a optimistician. That's what I force myself to be trained in the past 10years. Instead the basic charateristic I born from is still a pessemistician who seldom show up nowadays as I know how to control it in someways.

Being optimistic can support others to be more positive, cheerful and energetic.

Being pessemistic can support myself to run, to improve, to learn, to grow.

Angel and Devil have their own duty in this world. Please appreciate their participation, they make the world balance.

Work hard or give up

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 06:57:58 GMT

Being decisive or not makes a big difference in life. It is very painful to hold and wait, then why not go n work hard or simply give up. Decisive shows brave and positive personality.

Decisions keep us moving on, even go or don't go after the decision was made everything can go on until the next decision check point.

We avoid making decision because we are afraid of making a wrong decision or failure. What if I tell you, all your choice is wrong and will fail? Not to make any choice? Of course you can but in order to move on, we have to choose. Are failure or mistake that scary? I believe making friends with failure and mistake can make success as your lover. Failure and Success will support you to go forward and improve all life.

Usually we have friends more than lovers, don't we?

Why worry?

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 06:24:14 GMT

Why worry about my recovery? Becoz I love my job.

Why worry being disable? Becoz I love to fly.

Why worry about the world? Becoz I care.

Why worry about my future? Becoz I care how it goes.

Why worry about my life? Becoz I love to experience it.

Why worry about my babies? Becoz I love them.

Why worry about my love? Becoz I love you.

Why worry?

Becoz of LOVE and CARE.

想 Think Imagine

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 03:40:00 GMT

Thinking is a very interesting, there are no boundaries, no limits, no others. The dimension of human brain is as spacious as the space, amazing isn't it?

My 3rd day in bed begins today, do I really feel boring? not really actually.

I spend my time with my laptop, jp drama(Little Bee and Fortune Leave), movie The Illusionist, book POMPEII...

Pysically I didn't need much rest, coz I already have enough rest in my daily life. But mentally I am having a very good rest in the past few days. Since my tranformation, I fall in love with cultural stuffs, especially those related to humanity, psychology, socieology. But due to lack of space n time, which I need a lot to keep myself in mood, I am not working on it much lately.

In a ward of four, takes me 2 days to setup my own space to write something here. Sounds not very effective, let's see how I can improve in the future. But definitely I wanna have my own apartment before 2009.

To think about future, about improvement and about review are my favourites. I know I miss my job, my friends, my love. I worry about my illness though it is not that serious as I feel. In worst, what if I lost my right foot... what I can do after that, what happen to people around me. I worry about I wont be able to have a baby or I am not able to raise her. Will my love leave me? Am I not going to fly anymore? I wish I can fly with Erica on 13th, I swap in intentionally, dun wanna waste it? Will it become Tuesday with Chester? Still have lots of thing I wanna shall we others... Tons of thinking in my mind.

But what I have to do now, is to well use of my time and things around me to enhance myself. That's I only thing I can do, not just lying all day doing nothing. For the illness, I just save it for the doctor, nurse and god. Bless me!

Serious n Casual

Mon, 14 Jul 2008 20:21:32 GMT

Why So Serious? Why So Casual?

GAME

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 15:45:02 GMT

What is GAME?

Fun, Win, Lose, Competition, Players, Award, Penalty...

Everything in this world can be treated as a GAME.

Office Game, Relationship Game, Study Game, Walking Game, Sleeping Game, Kissing Game, Life Game...

Game must be participated, fun, rewardable and serious. No one is doing something for no reason, there is always a reason behind or deep inside. Players play football game for win, pride, money, reputation. Players play study game for qualification, money, status, knowledge. Game can also be fun. I dont think people will participate a game which is not fun. Though one game we dont have right to choose whether to participate or not, it is Life Game. We will never want to quit this game from the being as at the time we recognised, we are already deep into this game.

Game is always fun, we can treat everything as a game to make everything more fun. But only if you dont like Games.

How about TV GAME? What is it?

Leisure, Casual, Fun, Win, Lose, Level Up, Next Stage, Continue, Reset, Game Over...

Since the introduction of TV Game, people seems misinterpret this definition of GAME.

Game become casual, leisure, can be reset easily. When these definitions apply to other GAME, everything twisted...

Relationship Game can be casual, Life Game can be reset, Games were not treated as what it should be treated as. Human will quit whenever they want to quit. They will even reset their own Life Game by suicide.

You can always turn off or reset the TV game console during any of you game play. But can you imagine a Football Game was suspended due to players leaving the pitch right at the middle of the game? Can you imagine a Driver Game, the driver jump off the car and let the car out of control? Can you imagine a Life Game, the player suicide to end the game?

There are lot of game to choose in thise world to make your life game meaningful and fun. Never treat a game easily, so do TV game. Every kind of GAME are also fun and serious.

In this informative world, there are lots of information about all kind of game. We can always learn about the game before we participate, some game you can even try a bit before you go.

Once you are committed to a game, play til the end to see what happen and there are always some reward waiting for you. Please dont give up easily, you never reach the end, you never know what is there. To finish something is an achievement, you may not be able be the top scorer of the game but you will always be one of the player of that game. You may also rechallenge the game if you are passionate enough.

Dont argue with me that you have no choice to join the Life Game, coz it is a gift that you recognise your existancy. Ready for your real life game? Have Fun, Enjoy!

P.S. Bonus, you never need a Golden Finger in Life Game, coz you already have unlimited Continue.

Life can be that simple

Fri, 23 May 2008 17:52:12 GMT

quote from yeeman's blog! Bravo!

TWO GLASSES OF WINE

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 glasses of wine...

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.

Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two glasses of wine from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things; your family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions; things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. '

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car. The sand is everything else; the small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you.'

'Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.

Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups.

Take your partner out to dinner.

Play another 18.

Do one more run down the ski slope.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.
Take care of the golf balls first; the things that really matter.

Set your priorities.
The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the wine represented.

The professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of glasses of wine with a friend. '

thanks for visiting

Fri, 16 May 2008 00:01:26 GMT

i haven't been writing for a while, but i just found out that some people will still come and visit my little nation here.

it is a real surprise! thanks for supporting my sharing.

recently i was being pointed out that i dont want to stay at home which is true. coz i found there is no place for me here or not enough room for me to rest mentally. u might say, i already have a lot of free time and space in outport coz u hv more than half a month staying in hotel.

but for me hotel is a hotel, it gives me no feeling of a home. a home can let me relax, eat, think, write.

n this little nation is a home in the huge internet world.

my guest thank you for visiting my home. I feel being loved by all of you. love u

ahlun/chester

joy and enjoy

Thu, 15 May 2008 23:50:21 GMT

do u enjoy ur life?

enjoy - entirely joyful

this is how i interpret this word.

are u entirely joyful in ur life?

disaster are out there, global warming are out there, accident are out there, gossip are out there, disease are out there, crazy killers are out there. this is where we live, the Earth.

we control what we can control, we let go what we cannot control. we live for ourselve, we live for others, we live for the dead, we are living for a reason. so make our life colorful and valuable.

your god, your fate, your heart will guide u to where u belongs to, to find your value. whatever it is enjoy and praise.

enjoy