There is always a reason for not updating Xanga. And the reason is happiness is more than sadness.

My passion to record or memorize will only heat up when sadness overwhelm happiness.

Sadness is something I missed in 2008 but she come to visit me again by this end of last year. Hopefully 2009 will be a year of balance plus a year of change.

In most of the areas, I am still a optimistician. That's what I force myself to be trained in the past 10years. Instead the basic charateristic I born from is still a pessemistician who seldom show up nowadays as I know how to control it in someways.

Being optimistic can support others to be more positive, cheerful and energetic.

Being pessemistic can support myself to run, to improve, to learn, to grow.

Angel and Devil have their own duty in this world. Please appreciate their participation, they make the world balance.