Thinking is a very interesting, there are no boundaries, no limits, no others. The dimension of human brain is as spacious as the space, amazing isn't it?

My 3rd day in bed begins today, do I really feel boring? not really actually.

I spend my time with my laptop, jp drama(Little Bee and Fortune Leave), movie The Illusionist, book POMPEII...

Pysically I didn't need much rest, coz I already have enough rest in my daily life. But mentally I am having a very good rest in the past few days. Since my tranformation, I fall in love with cultural stuffs, especially those related to humanity, psychology, socieology. But due to lack of space n time, which I need a lot to keep myself in mood, I am not working on it much lately.

In a ward of four, takes me 2 days to setup my own space to write something here. Sounds not very effective, let's see how I can improve in the future. But definitely I wanna have my own apartment before 2009.

To think about future, about improvement and about review are my favourites. I know I miss my job, my friends, my love. I worry about my illness though it is not that serious as I feel. In worst, what if I lost my right foot... what I can do after that, what happen to people around me. I worry about I wont be able to have a baby or I am not able to raise her. Will my love leave me? Am I not going to fly anymore? I wish I can fly with Erica on 13th, I swap in intentionally, dun wanna waste it? Will it become Tuesday with Chester? Still have lots of thing I wanna shall we others... Tons of thinking in my mind.

But what I have to do now, is to well use of my time and things around me to enhance myself. That's I only thing I can do, not just lying all day doing nothing. For the illness, I just save it for the doctor, nurse and god. Bless me!